Where with the road lead?

So, I thought, when I created this blog, that I would only update it once a day, at the most. But much to my surprise, I found myself thinking about what I can put on here all day! My thoughts have become so entangled that I don't know where to start. so, I'm just going to let my fingers walk across the key board and see where it leads.

So I counted back and realized that Bear and I have been dating for 5 months this month on the twenty ninth. How time flies! For those of you who are a little confused because of the time line I presented in my first post. Yes, I am out of high school. Yes, Bear and I had been dating for our entire senior year. In August, we had a bit a falling out. It went a little like this:

Bear has this habit, quite an annoying one really, of deciding that I'm better off with someone else. He sat me down (this was before he left for boot camp) and told me he started our relationship because he wanted to get over another girl. Needless to say, I was shocked. But we were best friends before we started dating and I was determined to remain best friends after. So, I encouraged him to talk to her, to tell her how he felt. Looking back, it probably wasn't the smartest idea. Well, hindsight is always 20/20. They started dating and Bear and I remained best friends, hanging out and such. Except I still loved him with all my heart. Apparently, he felt the same because about a month into their relationship, we're talking and he tells me there was something he wanted to ask me before he walked out the door that day (the day he broke up with me) and he wondered if things would be different if he had been brave enough to ask.

I asked him what it was. It couldn't make much difference now. I was just curious.
"I wanted to turn around and ask you to take me back." That's what he said. Mind blown. I was wrong. It changed EVERYTHING. I asked him how he felt about his current girlfriend (who disliked me and I can understand why) and he told me he saw and liked her just as friend. Long story short, he ended up breaking up with her. I didn't want to push him and didn't. If he wanted to be with me, he would. And he did. He asked me to take him back, saying that he knows he screwed up and doesn't deserve a second chance, but he's asking anyway. I said yes. But we decided to start all over from the beginning.

So, there you have it. That's why we've only been dating for 5 months. Fun, I know. Bear and I decided we have problems with communication. We both believe the other can do better and are constantly waiting for the other to find someone better. We're working on it.

That's probably the most dramatic thing that has happened in my life. For that, I'm thankful. When things start to get dramatic, I start to get angry and illogical. Maybe that's why I try to keep myself out of it.

Semper Fi (Always Faithful),
Damia